I hear this lullaby inside my head
It plays a thousand times when i crawl in bed
I’m scared i’m not alright and it drives me mad, mad, mad
These voices in my mind are my only friends
I just had a daughter
A boy became a father
My wife became a mother
The road has met the rubber
Another night at 3am
Staring at the ceiling fan
How’m i gonna keep my fans?
Can i make a hit again to feed my fam?
I’m freaking out
I’m tweaking, man
I’m bleeding out like jesus’s hands
I’m 30 now, so be man
My demons love to tease me (and)
I’m trying to fight ‘em
But it doesn’t work
I’ve been fucked up since my birth
I hear this lullaby inside my head
It plays a thousand times when i crawl in bed
I’m scared i’m not alright and it drives me mad, mad, mad
These voices in my mind are my only friends
But, i’m afraid of them
Every time i feel a bit of hope
I start to hit a slope
Devil throws me in the ropes
I think i’m down for the count
Going round after round
Keep on doubting myself
If ion stand up and fight
I’m ain’t getting that belt
So i swing back and i bloody up my fists
Where those teeth at?
I can’t relax
Yeah, i’m my biggest foe
I can see that
So i think fast
I did it my own way
Now, i’m in my own way
So own it and go face those demons
And in the end
It’s just me against my thoughts
I’ve spent my whole life
Trying to turn them off
Now, i think i know
Just how to make amends
Don’t be scared to love the voice in your beautiful, messed up, head
3:24
